Weiying’s Blog

Currently having my semester break at hometown.Didn’t go anywhere in hometown but only stay at home with family.Helping mom with house-work and being a stand-by-mode driver for my brother.Aih~

Break-up with him is my word but I wonder and I known that she is going out with few girls all this while.Is him purposely told me all that, so he can know will I jealous?Do jealous means I stil love him?He said that he is so hurt and waiting my answer to come back to his side.and last nite suddenly sent me a sms asking whether do I stil want him.What this mean?Is it if I answer him I don’t want him anymore,he will court another girl.Just this answer he want?Love can’t be measure.Love is not a kind of gambling.Not what u can let go as if the relations did not shows any good outcomes.Love is a kind of give but not hope for paying back.But u did…this also show that I’m not as important in your life as u said all this while.

Guys…as if u r saying that u miss ur ex so much and praying that she’ll come back to u one day,can u by the other side courting another girl?Can u?What this means?He answer me that I hurt him too much and it is hard to let go 5 years relations.Do this means that he really can simply get a girl to be his gf for forgetting me?Is this so?Do this fair to the girl?Then what u hope to get from the girl?What if the girl din gave any good respond?U’ll find another girl to forget her?Then all round and round.Untill when gonna stop?Then what is LOVE is ya heart,in ya mind?U doesn’t treat Love as important in ya life.U just hope for a girl that willing to accept u and gave birth for u and take care of ya children.Not the only Love u are willing to gave out but hope for what is the paying.

He ask me back to his side,I reject again.I said we can’t be together but we stil friends.Yea,I admit I do have a little ‘not syok’ when I know that he is being with another girl,but this is normal as I love him b4.I know I will feel this way 1 day when I’ve make a choice to let him go.I won’t blame anyone as I choose this way.I’ve to be responsible with what I’ve done.Sorry!I learn from the pass and I’ll be better later.I know what I need and what I can give.To love someone that not hope for my pay…I`m still waiting!

I know I hurt u so much as u too.But I forgive what u did now.Never think that I know you so much until I’ve let u go.U change a lot.U learn a lot.U may find a girl better than me out there easily.I`ll pray for u.I`m not that perfect as u mean,not as good as u think…but it doesn’t mean that u should change ya attitute to flirt with the girls out there.This not shown that u are great but u are fooling others and lieing to your own.Please be realistic.Think for ya family and friends and ur own future.I stil care for u.Please don’t do such silly things to attract my attention to care for u..I tell u,I’ll hate u even if u hurt urself just to attract me.Sorry..I won’t forgive u about this.No one can predict what happen tomorrow.I may be around or somewhere else but I do hope to hear from you and thank for letting me known u.Thank god!Anything just drop me a sms or call me.We are stil friends,and u’ll be my best friend.

"女生都需要安全感, 我知道, 但谁都办不到…."
我把脸向着他, 忽然间很严肃地问他, "到底女生要的安全感是什么?"
他傻着了, 脑袋像一片空白.

他说:"我朋友说,是不是女生前面出现一辆车时, 男生及时挡在前面就是安全感?"
静思几秒后, 他又说: "安全感是抽象的, 不是具体的,对不对?"
这句话是我之前告诉他的, 很高兴他能记得, 我用力的点头, 表示赞同.

回到自己宿舍, 把问题丢给朋友, 她们都有不同的见解….

玲说: "很简单啊, 安全感就是让对方觉得安全嘛."
营说: "在我危险的时候及时出现!"
辉说: "也许我比较依赖他, 所以他要很关心我, 照顾我, 我才会有安全感…"

最后, 他寄了封简讯给我, 说: "安全感是来自对方的体贴, 爱护, 照顾, 保护, 呵护, 关心, 等等…
而不是用一个语言或动作来说明的."

At first,it was a happy and enjoyable stories….3 months ago,my dad bought a  very very cute little puppy.And name it as his idol,Beckham!He has a white cloudy long soft fur which almost cover his eyes…here his look when 1st bought home.Very naughty and playful!I use to play with him although just run around in side the house.He will try to catch me although he always lose,hahaha!Sometimes even bang himself on the wall because of running too fast to catch me.Haha,sound stupit!He even sit on his special chair and watching tv together while all my family members are sitting at the living room.

3 months later,I  got a phone call from my mom that Beckham had been sent to the clinic.Why?For an eyes surgery.The doctor said that the long long fur always stick on his eyes untill it become redish and then to white.Then he may become blind as if the surgery fail.I was so sad as I din have a chance to look at him before he was sent to the hospital.Feel like wanna skip da class and rush back to hometown and see how was him now.How r u now,my little cute cute darling???????I miss u so much!

Holiday…When is it? Starting from Today? Few hours later I’ll be going back Ipoh. Why I do not feel happy? I suppose to be happy for almost a week holiday, until I can enjoy at my hometown. Why?

Of cause I do not feel the happiness in coming holiday, assignment need to be complete during this week of holiday, exams the next day when I reach KL. Huh~ what this call holiday? Holiday with a lot of preparation? Preparing assignments?  I rather not have this week of holiday. Anyway, wish all my friends and group mate ( Nitya ) Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya. For Chinese, of cause Happy Holiday!

What a sad story I would like to tell here. One of my friends got terminated to continue his course. I feel really sad about him.  Really do not know what I can say to help him. He had to repeat the whole pass semester; I wonder how if he do not want to continue anymore. Why do we need to make such decision again? Why life is full of choices and need we to choose? Is this was one of the cycle we need to pass through in our life? Planning to move on? What was your plan? Do we plan to fail? Do we plan to get terminated? How good planning can help in our life? What if we can’

t follow as in our plan?

Today I attend OB class and learn something about big 5 personality factors, what I would like to mention is conscientiousness; a person with high conscientiousness factors would have a plan-full behavior. This person can be very dependable but I do not agree about it, because sometimes many things are out of our control. We can’t be able to keep track in our plans. The fact is that our behavior are depends on the environment. Changes should be made in relation of the changers in the environment. Believe in fate? I do but am this means our negative emotions side? Sometimes negative side too will be a positive side factors, it just depends on our own perceptions. Different people will have different perception in order to be perceived. Don’

t understand? Try to have a look in OB text.

LOVE LOVE LOVE ……..

What it brings to us?Happiness or sadness?It’s a Must or given Choice? Once u got a love ones,y u stil need to choose?Not satisfied?Why do we need love?Why we need love to survive?

Craps!!All craps!!Why we need to suffer for love?Love not a things that we can pay back!Love is selfish,no fairness.So just dun hope for "fair n square".Jus like what people say,LOVE IS BLIND!

Piscess is a kind of romantic animals.Attitude too almost the same,know what?Just like fish,after they take a deep breath and swim down the sea.They want excitement and fancinate view of life.They’ll going for the most best and and challenging events.After they have enjoyed enough,they need a time to swim back to the surface for another long and deep breath.Then they’ll swim back to the deep sea and the process continue.Although it’s dangerous in the deep sea,they may go through thousand of trouble but they stil like to go for it.They like to swim without control.They’ll forever not enough until they really enjoy enough and stay somewhere around the surface and forever not going back to the deep sea. Maybe this is their characteristic as they come to this world.

Talking about horoskop?No la….Just wanna compare myself with what I read in a book.Quite alike actually!I don’t like to be control by a relationship.I hate stress by it too…I like swim,enjoy!Sorry…this what I want.Sorry~

It had been a long struggle time for me to finnish this semester.It’s really a hard hard time.As I know,one semester is coming tougher than another.How I gonna finnish my degree?How??

I admit that I’m not putting all my effort in studies but just only few weeks before the exams.This call "Lam si pou fatt giok"…haha!! But atleast I’m doing better than last semester.Maybe is because of regret after getting a bad bad result last semester gua..

I’ve been thinking of stopping/withdraw from my course n get a job or get married asap.Really fed-up of facing FAIL n poor result during my depression that time.Luckily i got some friend really support n encourage me to continue my studies.Thanks pal! My parents is the main supporter ofcoz in my financial.If not because of my dad,I think I really do quit everything.Thanks DAD!!

So,what I’ve choose now is continue my studies.Hopefully I can come with better result every semester….I’m not greedy,as long as I get can graduate with all my friends.I’ll thanks god! Thanks everyone!

Guys is strong but will become weak one day.Especially when they r facing love problems and when their girls crying infront of them.Strong in wat way?Anger or sensitivity?Haha.both also wrong…Guys are strong in JEALOUSY~ Jealous in what aspect?

Ofcause when they know that their girls going out wif other guy,chattin with guys,going out wif guys or even looking at a guys.Huh~Is this a big problem or small matter?Although going out with a badge of frens with girls n guys,still need to explaint so much?What we can do over there?Gang bang?Kiss or sleep together?Guys,you r thinking too much on it.Just a bufday party/gathering…what big deal?What we can do over there?

Please la,think carefully before you start complaint.Just a small matter.As if u really love ya girl so much,why wanna makes her feel bad to her friends mandarin says "nan zuo".Atlast what you get from her?Hatred?Not to her friends but towards U!

Sometimes girls do wanna be honest and telling you all de truth / report all to you their daily news.But when it get to another guys,they will need to rethink the matter and start creating stories.For what?Just because your sensitiveness that make our arguements and quarrels.Just for you not to blame/get angry with her.Depends on what u use to respond b4.Does it really wrong for just to prevent quarelling between both of u?Girls do suffer from that because when fight or shout,girls alwiz lose.Then what for still wana argue for this sort of matter?Why can’t just sit down and solve about it?

Come’on guys,try to think of ya girls.They did nothing wrong to know more friends.They r ur girls and not ur pets.As if U,yourself too don’t have the self confidence,how u aspect from ur girls?Let them be,if it is yours,sure is yours!Nothing can compare.She love U that is urself not the way u control.Even U r not that expert either.

Try to control,why not jus learn to let go.Maybe she’ll back just in few second.Control will make it more worst~ Maybe not all girls thinks like me but more or less have the same feel.

So,GUYS,think before you take any action.Don’t let your girls hate u,when they actually love u so much.When the one we love treat us until we hate him,it’s very suffer,can’t sleep,can’t eat,mind can’t stop thinking of u….Because we LOVE YOU SO MUCH ~

I wonder how come Universities nowadays stil got such childish student. This is based on true story and my own experience.What a sad story~ Know wat?I`ve been meeting twice of a kind person since I study here. Girls really girls, alwiz struggle for guys and marks.

Guys really that important? For me, bf is jus bf, can’t make any change for the world to turn de other side. But this doesn’t mean I not love my bf but not the kind of MUST. Some girls really treat guys is the most important in their life. Without guys, they really can’t make it success in life. Bullshit~! The scariest issue is because of jealousy, they willing to kill some other person who distracts her. Girls are fierce animals. This can be prove!

2nd would be marks! What marks? Ofcoz exam marks, assignments marks, presentation marks, participation marks n etc…marks, marks, marks, marks!! Is it really that important? Important in what aspect? Future? An opportunity for getting a better job? Do u think its jus tat easy? Maybe yes, maybe NOT.

Marks important for me too but not in the aspect above. It’s just something that able to compare with others or something that drag me closer with my fren. More relevant topics may be discuss when there is a group. I won’t let my marks far different wif my group members but do u think we really need to compete among our group members in an assignment? What u know about group assignment? It’s a work/project done with team work, when all do it together in a team in their best for better marks that share among the groups. No one will get much more higher or lower with each other, but y there is still unsatisfied in u? Being a leader will have extra marks? STOP dreaming,please! Everyone is giving the same effort and sharing the same benefits (marks). What u get at last after reporting to the lecturer about your unsatisfaction? NOTHING?? SAD!! This will only let the lecturer to know what happen in our group and how childish u are!

My questionnaire is "how come 4 of us can discuss happily and end up with a success work but not u? Therefore, I think all of u should know who was the one having the problem. Haha, noneed guess who is tat person, just treat this as a story. Forget about it if u doesn’t understand!

Huh~girls is the problem but girls also a problem’s cure. Many things girls can manage better than a guy, so, most probably girls faces more stress than a guy. Do all girls agreed out there?

Last week I was so so so busy with assignment and test. I purposely uses so many "so" to express how busy I am. All non stop coming 1 on 1.Huh~really tired and back pain! Really getting sick facing all this compulsary stuff, include some groups assignment’s problem too.

Sad today, AIS quiz 3 doing very badly. I’m regret with this result, because i know this is what i deserve…It’s my fault,I’m not ready for it. Sad and regret! Sorry~

But this semester time schedule is more pack, more stress, and tension n hard work needed. Huh~very tired!Maybe one day,I may relax!!

This semester class members had change.Now my class is a combination of group 15 and group 16 last semester.Therefore many is facing assignment grouping problems.One of it is me!I’m so sad that to avoid from the person I hated,makes me leaving alone here n form a group with all I not known.Bit scared actually.